As I get older, I find myself looking back into the past often. Sometimes as I am just reading a book or just travelling from one place to another, memories of the past will flash before my mind’s eyes. When I looked at my past follies and actions today, I have a very different feel about them. Things which I used to flare up and get angry with, when you looked back again, they seem pretty trivia to me now. I would ask myself, "why did I bother to get angry with such small issue?" The heart is different now. The worldview is different.
I used to think pretty lowly of myself. Today, it doesn’t seems to bother me anymore. I am who I am. I remember I used to resist putting my photos in the Web. But now, I am alright with it and feel that there is a need to let other people know who I am. Things are pretty different when you grow up.
I used to feel lonely. But now, I enjoy being by myself. Perhaps I have lived too long as a single man. I am not too comfortable sharing a room with someone for the rest of my life. For now, I am enjoying lots of freedom. I don’t think that marriage suits me. Well I used to think that it is a compulsory rites of passage for everyone. As I grow older, I realised that I can choose a different path to take. I don’t have to get married and be a father.
Well, I guess things changed. Like they always say, change is the only constant in this world. You like it or not, things are changing everyday. The question is "How much have our hearts changed?"