Its all about relationship


I recently chanced upon a video clip from Youtube and that kept me thinking for a while. The video is about a university lecturer addressing his students. It was a science lecture and he was telling them that the basis of everything, or to be more specific the basis of life is relationship. Everything on this planet earth is all about relationship; one thing links to another. The mysterious thing about life is how all these things are interconnected and how, to a large extend, can’t do without each other. He explained that when God created the universe, He first created the physical elements that support life, such as light and heat, water and the air. These elements are then interconnected and eventually giving breath to other life-forms, such as plants, vegetations, living creatures and finally humans. After He created man, He found that it is not good for him to be alone, therefore He created a companion for him, the woman. There, humans are again interconnected through various kinds of relationships. When the man and woman fell from grace, this first relationship and the whole interconnectedness of things in the world changed.

Although shared from a biblical perspective, I find this whole idea of interconnectedness very mesmerising. The fact is we are more connected than we are divided. We need each other more than the fact that we are separated. And perhaps, we are more similar than the differences we thought we have.

Some years ago, I went through a very dark period of my life and I decided to cut myself off from the people around me. I did not physically isolate myself from them, but what I was going through greatly affected my relationships with them. I felt disconnected and life was very miserable. I went away for a period of time and started traveling from Thailand to Vietnam, Malaysia and eventually to Bhutan. In Bhutan, I found a very different kind of connection. I was connected back to nature, back to the mountains and back to the valleys. I was connected back to the living streams that gave life to the trees in the forests and the creatures that inhabit the ground.

In Bhutan, I was surrounded everyday by the Himalayan mountains and everyday I walked through the woods and passed through the rivers and streams. Each step I took and each breath I breathed in, I was making renewed connection with creations and rediscovering the lost connection. It was when I reconnected myself with nature’s energy, I realised how small and tiny I was in all of these networks of life; this vast interconnectedness that we are all living in. My Bhutanese guide often told me that Bhutanese do not see themselves as superior to nature, neither do they see themselves as inferior. They see themselves as all part of nature: the trees in the forests, the rocks in the field, the fish in the streams,  the creatures roaming in the woods and the humans that inhabit the ground, all are part of this whole networks of life and breath. We all breathe in the same breath and received heat from the same Sun and enjoy the coolness of the same moon.

When I came back from my retreat in Bhutan, the first thing I wanted to do was to restore my relationships with my family and friends. With the renewed relationships, I set to make things in order, set the wrong right all over again and slowly build up my strength to face the challenges of life all over again. We never have to live in defeat and despondence if we understand how interconnected we are and how we can draw strength from one another.

Chang, from Bangkok

The Meaning That Disappeared (Kwahm Mai Mee Hai Bpai) 

I love this song by Nat Sadaktorn…. 

ลมหายใจ เคยมีความหมาย เพราะเธอ

Lom hai jai koey mee kwahm mai pror tur

My breath once had meaning because of you

ยิ้มของเธอ เคยเป็นเหตุผล ให้ฉันลืมตา

Yim kaung tur koey bpen het pon hai chun leum dtah

Your smile used to be the reason I opened my eyes
(*) แต่ว่าวันนี้ ตอนนี้ ความว่างเปล่ากำลังเคลื่อนไหว

Dtae wah wun nee dtaun nee kwahm wahng bplao gumlung kleuan wai

But today, now, empiness is moving in

ความอ้างว้าง เข้ามาปกคลุมหัวใจ

Kwahm ahng wahng kao mah bpok kloom hua jai

The loneliness enters and covers my heart
(**) คิดถึงทุกๆ สิ่ง คิดถึงทุกๆ อย่าง

Kit teung took took sing kit teung took took yahng

I miss everything, I miss everything

ความรักที่เลยผ่าน ความหมายที่หายไป

Kwahm ruk tee loey pahn kwahm mai tee hai bpai

The love that passed me by, the meaning that disappeared

คิดถึงทุกสัมผัส คิดถึงเวลากอด

Kit teung took sumput kit teung welah gaut

I miss every touch, I miss when we hugged

เมื่อฉันไม่มีเธอ ตรงนี้ ไม่รู้จะอยู่เพื่อใคร

Meua chun mai mee tur dtrong nee mai roo ja yoo peua krai

When I’m without you right now, I don’t know who I’ll live for


Yahk lup dtah laeo hai bpai

I want to close my eyes and disappear
ห้องของเรา เคยมีความฝัน สวยงาม

Haung kaung rao koey mee kwahm fun suay ngahm

Our room used to have beautiful dreams

รักของเธอ ยังคงเก็บไว้ ตรงที่เดิม

Ruk kaung tur yung kong gep wai dtrong tee derm

Our love is still kept in the same place
ลมหายใจ เคยมีความหมาย…เคยมีความหมาย

Lom hai jai koey mee kwahm mai koey mee kwahm mai

My breathe used to be meaningful, it used to be meaningful

水月 | Moon in the Water

I would always buy this flower wreath from a mute girl selling them near my area. The flower always reminds me of how temporal our world is and how everything will pass away like the snow after winter would melt away. They will change their state of being and become water, flowing into the streams and rivers. Everything good or bad thing is just a for a moment…nothing is eternal and nothing is unchanging.